lost expressions

when was the last time i kissed someone...

when was the last time i looked deep into the eye, when was the last time........i do not remember

but what i realize today is how i have convinently managed to stop myself from expressing.
i have forgotten how to love, i have forgettn how to feel

infact, it is quite ironical, as i sat yesterday playing with a 2 yr old girl , called ali; made her wear a golf cap and saw the pretty pink of her lip perched on the chubby cheeks... it stuck with me as i realized how i had forgotten how to express

i dont see the connection and i hope i figure it out while typing this...as a matter of fact even writing this is not expression, its a mere fact!

and now my mind falls into the teenage bracket, of falling for petite crushes, but i stop myslef...
tell myself that career is more important, but since when did materialism flood in and .......

since when was anything more important than love? and since when did i become so wise
so unlike my childhood!

is this called the transition period?
the insenstivity which we learn to obtain!?